my life with depression.com

sometimes i think… is it all worth it?

sometimes the answer is yes. sometimes the answer is no. i wish that the answer was more consistant. my "anal" self always wants it done right and my "perfection" self is never happy nor is that self ever satisfied with what i produce. sometimes i just get into the "fuck it" mood. i’m in that mood right now. then, when things get backed up, my perfection self kicks in along with my "don’t want to do it right now" self.

i just need to learn to be happy with myself.